My Memories

2012-01-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

you dont know you're beautiful!

:DDD

2012-01-25T22:13:00.002+08:00

HELLO! LONG TIME NO SEE! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARRRR! :D

woahhh, at first this morning i was damn siannn, like what in the world am i doing in school on a chu1 san3-.-

BUT LIFE'S GOOD! hahahaha! saw A WORM in the morning! HAHAHA! then after that, went to meet yuka and tania! lol, recounted about CNY!

morn assembly! hahaha, i used to stand at the front, but now i abit scared kenna caught by teacher for my long hair! OMG AND ALMOST EVERYBODY will say "shannon, i feel like cutting your hair" "shannon, can you tie your hair!" "shannon, you look like dog" CAN MEMORISE ALR! but i like my hair the way it is! hehehe!

i like wednesday and thursday timetable! end QUITE early, plus quite slack!(: math tutorial! i think mr chua a bit not happy today, see la, the new year blues, make people come back and teach! no wonder! but lesson quite good today, at least i felt more love for my mathh!:DD omg, this reminds me of what james said in class the other day, "那些年,我们一起做的math!" (Y)

uhhh... then what was it ah! OHH BREAKKK! HOW CAN I FORGET MY BREAK! how come i feel like my memory for the entire break was cut off ah! i really cannot remember much!:O

then bio lecture! omgoodness, this one is the really want to die one! my eyes like half closing, plus the seat so comfortable!! oh ya, neh say before hor, for bio lecture, our class go seat at the audi red seats! view damn clear for someone cock eye like meee! just that teacher can see us laaa! hehehe! weiren, emily and huiling was having a discussion on who i was smsing ^^ emily the best! say is class guy! HAHAHAHA! but anyway, i survived 1 and the half hours of bio lecture!!

THEN BREAK! hehehe! i just rmb i drank tehbing! oh no, my memory failing :O oh ya, we were quite late for bio tutorial! got confusion! mrs tay go change classroom! bio quite funn la! woah, luckily we get Mrs Tay! so harpieeee! lessons not so boring! everybody whole life troll her! hahahaha! (Y) we must go her treehouse to bai4 nian2! hehehe!

THEN CT! woahhh, alicia so zai3! aiya, reminded me that i need to start thinking what i want to do in LIFE! WOAHHH SIAO EH! lifee lehhh! no jokeeeeee! hahaha! nehmind, still have time to think(: hopefully, can just be happpppy, aiya, but quite hard to be THAT happpy la! then we have to do some worksheet thing on strength! 30 STRENGTHS!? siaoooo! who have so many! weaknesses damn easy to write! damn funny! we were saying we should just write modesty as strength then the rest no need write alr (Y) HEHEHE! so genius right!

THEN TRAINING! hehehe! the feeling is gradually coming back! i hope it will be the sameeee! but i like how training can be fun yet we still learn stuffs AT THE SAME TIME! and like never angst, so everybody very happy! ok la, but i really liked the atmosphere! hehehe! but we should really learn lateral properly DD:

OK TODAY IS A REALLY REALLY GOOD DAY AND I HOPE EVERYDAY WILL BE LIKE TODAY! :DDDDDD SCHOOL ROCKS! LIFE ROCKS! HAHAHAHAHAHA! AND I'M HAPPYYYYYYYY!

2012-01-13T23:43:00.002+08:00

FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL IS FINALLY OVER!

TELL ME HOW I'M GOING TO SURVIVEEEEEE!!!

school is kind of boring and mundane! and it's not helping with the ,"this is your A levels year!" talk! if a person is really unmotivated, that talk wont help, probably laugh it off only lo

if a person is motivated, that talk wont make sense, so yeah-.-

maybe my mind still floating in the sky, but nvm, it will come down soon, i think. I know my priorities! SERIOUS SHANNON! ok la, that's kind of lame!

MEANWHILE, CAN I ENJOY LIFE FOR A LITTLE LONGER, PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2012-01-08T10:54:00.002+08:00

i'm going to miss my holidays alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alotalot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot

2012-01-07T13:12:00.002+08:00

I LIKE THE LAST DAY OF MY HOLIDAY!!!

saturday and sunday not counted because it's originally a holiday already!!

went to school yesterday to do some stuffs first before going for training! AND OMG SO COINCIDENTAL! suddenly got this siaodingdong sit beside me and look at me! then at that instant my brain was thinking "who's that mad person!" HAHAHAHA! and then i realised it's joey! hahaha! she go for group 1 gathering first, i only can join them after training! BUT THE COINCIDENCE WAS CRAZY AND I JUST O.O for a few seconds!

training was ok, but coach hasnt been here on thurs and fri! i think he's down with a really bad sickness! :O get well soon!!

hohoho, then after training, took a bus to ecp! BUT HOR, i didnt know where to alight so i tell the uncle to tell me when i can alight! THEN THE UNCLE FORGOT :O so i had to cross the road and take the other bus back D:

I FINARRY REACH ECP AT 3.20! hohoho! then they all cycle until pigu pain! CRAZY, RENT 3 HOURS! then we just go beach and play! hahaha! we all decided to throw joey into the sea since she's the only one who brought extra clothes!!

SO HARD TO DRAG HER! and her hands keep throwing sand at us! AND DIS-GUST-TING JOEY throw sand down ________, SO I JUST ZI YUAN GO INTO THE WATER AND WASH IT OFF! TSKTSK!

we TRIED playing volleyball for a while but FAILLLL! so we BURY joey in the sand! hahahah! heow go create imaginary _____ for joey!

after a while, like nothing much to do, so we all just go stone on the rock and take pictures :D

BUT THE ROCK REALLY VERY NICE!! i think i can just lie there and watch the world go by! ((: someday, i shall do that again!(:

then wan lin had to go back! then linhui and heow also left! so erntian and zhu hong waited while joey and i went to change first! after that so coool, we bought maggie mee from 7-11 and sat on another rock and watch sunset and moon appearing! so niceeee(:

and then we all went home!

I MUST go there again! :DDD

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GLENDA! ((:

2012-01-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

aiyo poor blogg! i never abandon you(: hahahaha!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ( abit lagg! sorry)

new year, new begininng! ok la, maybe not beginning la, sounds weird! another cycle of learning and growing! (:

i just hope it goes well for everyone i care! (or those that i dont care also la) :D

THANK YOU! MY FAMILY! MY FRIENDS! AND EVERYBODY THAT MADE MY 2011 SO MEMORABLE AND I KNOW WILL MAKE MY 2012 EQUALLY MEMORABLE!(:

there's so many things in life to be thankful for! OHYEAH! :D

2011-12-26T11:07:00.002+08:00

Long time no post!

BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :DDD

just came back from family hols! went to taiwan!
was quite reluctant to go over at first! D: but it was good time spent with my family(: especially when my brother is going to NS next year! mygoodness! he's still like a kid, i heard NS transforms boys into men! :DD
as usual, my brother was being lame!
my mum was asking how to zoom using the camera and my brother was like, "SHOUT ZOOM!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA!:D

and i asked my brother to press some fart sound app from my phone and it was damn loud, WE ALL BURST OUT LAUGHING!:D

going to certain places in taiwan reminds me of when we went there last time!
chenxi and her clown suit! AND THE PANTS SHE WORE with the "get active!"
then we zihigh in the hotel, eat all the maggie mee:D and i quarelled with chenxi! hahahah! woah and the taipei 101 take the lift need 20 bucks! i didn't even know last time! siaosiao one!

sometimes i really wished i had a time machine, rewine to those memories, fast forward those unpleasant stuff, forward to the future to see if i get to travel around the world(:

i think i miss the point of celebrating christmas but maybe to me, i just want to thank all for this wonderful 2011(: it wasn't perfect, but it was awesome! thanks for being part of it! :D

a starbucks in taiwan had this on their cup,

"when we're together, i know i'll never fall"

2011-12-04T13:55:00.002+08:00

getting more and more used to life in sg!

my mum commented i was quiet when i come back and she said i'm always like that because i remember being like that last year too! haha!

not that i'm purposely ignoring her, it's just that i dont feel like talking much..

30 nov: my cousins came:D i think it helps that they came! (: ohh! and i finally catch 'you are the apple of my eye' by myself!:D hahaha! weiren and his "watching movie alone" experience! gan3 ran3 le!

1 dec: my cousin's birthday! went for floorball trng and had a nice dinner with cake (:

2 dec: went for training again and then after that went to meet glendat at 313! met joey there! haha! AND OMG! THE STUUUPID GLENDAY, GLENDAT AND MUN SCAMMED ME 4 TIMES! AND I COULDNT EVEN TRICK THEM ONCE even with HELP ;) -.- hahahaha! I WILL TAKE MY REVENGE SOMEDAY!

3 dec: went swimming with my cousins at jurong east swimming pool! the pool is damn disgusting la!-.- got FUNNY hair floating inside! luckily it rained! haha, i dont really fancy playswimming now, although i think swimming normally is still quite ok(:

today: woah! so tired!

aiya, i think i'm losing my steam to post so byebye!

2011-11-29T17:59:00.000+08:00

i'm back. hmmm... i feel so lost and sad i guess. i need some time to adjust my state of mind and heart. give me some time. thanks!

2011-11-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

Long time no post:D

OP is over(: which means my j1 life can be nicely concluded:D

hmmmm... j1 is a very interesting year for me, i should say!

i would rate this rollercoaster ride a 7 out of 10(:

Before i got onto the rollercoaster ride, i was apprehensive about the ride, i was scared there would be a free fall that scares the hell out of me.
When i actually got onto the ride, i felt so alone. i really did. People surrounded me, day in, day out, yet at the end of the day, i felt alone. this excludes friends i already had in ny(: of course i was happy and being myself when i was with them. But they couldn't be with me the whole day.

well, i learn to be more independent. I started going for classes on my own, heading off to random places on my own and then i realised it's not that bad being alone sometimes. I like being around people, so that's when the alone times give me the space and solitude i needed(:

The rollercoaster rides had unexpected turns, some drops, some loops, but i'm thankful for tchoukball, and floorball. Tennis not counted because i already know you all! HAHA!
more of floorball actually, at first i super sian leh, because dont have anybody i know):
then the rest no need explain alr la(:

hahaha! i like my class too! although i really hope we could be more united(: i mean it's nice to be able to talk and sit around as a class (full class) but well, i guess it's not easy to achieve!
7K, it's our last year together next year. whatever happens, i just hope we leave each other with good memories(: i really didnt fancy our class at first!
but with all the troll warlords! and the constant teasing of huiling, emily and hui shan! plus all the other lame stuffs that always happens during lesson, i gradually liked our class more and more:D
hope j2 will be an equally exciting year for me!

it will be stressful but hmmm.. it might turn out differently(:

my hols will be very busy! but WO XI HUAN:D

2011-10-23T12:23:00.002+08:00

In the midst of these busy stuffs, i went malaysia yesterday(:

it's so sad that i cant even rmb when i last went malaysia): everyone's so busy. and a few times this year, my parents went ahead without us due to our busy commitments. i feel bad when i tell my parents i cant go over because "I have ________, i can't go".

even though i brought the laptop yesterday to do work report, i'm glad i spend time with them. With all the lame jokes and teasing, it felt so warm(: while we've outgrown some things, i guess the feelings never change!:D

Nothing beats having the time of your life in malaysia:D

2011-10-15T17:51:00.003+08:00

27) Where is somewhere that you want to visit?

NEW ZEALAND! and the MAlDIVES!

after reading books, i've always imagined life on a farm. The serenity(ok, not really) but like getting up to the chicken's crowing, milking the cows, shearing the sheep:D hahaha!

so i really hope to visit the farms in new zealand and perhaps stay there for a long long time, buying a caravan to travel around in it(: go for white water rafting:D hehehe!

and the maldives! it's going to disappear in 50 years time when the sea level rises): i think the sea at the maldives is very nice because it's crystal clear, like swimming pool(: and i'm always more inclined towards scenic places at the beach:D

2011-10-15T16:25:00.001+08:00

so touching):

2011-10-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

promos are over:D hahah! a bit lag i know! but i have so many programmes after promos i'm so happy(: at least i'm alive doing something and not just mugging like there's no tomorrow:D

but actually this time i think because there wasn't a goal i had or a stake involved so i just studied what i could absorb and had my fair share of fun during promos period(: if i'm lucky, i will see how things go and maybe decided adding some extra weight to my acads to push myself?

if not, i'll remain status quo and focus on my other commitments(:

thank you yuka, tania & elena for the presents(: hehehe!

2011-10-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

24) Write about something you once loved, but now despised.

hmmm... woah! cannot think leh. ooh! i think i know! actually not so extreme. but i used to like running when i was young, i have no idea why, dont ask me why either(:

but everytime my dad asked me to run, i'll gladly go along:D but now, i know i need to run but i dont really fancy running unless there's company. because it's like you're kind of "playing" with yourself?

because normally in a sport, you will play with other people one ma(:

and i prefer sports that's more engaging(: rather than just doing it alone):

but i think running is a very good form of mental training!(: it always helps:D haha!

2011-10-05T13:26:00.005+08:00

hello!:D
thank you everybody for making my 17th birthday a memorable one despite the exams!(:
i will thank people in the chronological order(:

jolene ong!(: your sms super super duper duper long! haha! and so touching and sweet(:
amanda!:D so cool! you two somehow always first 2:D hehehe! thanks for your message too:D

(although it was be-earlied) hahaha!

glendat! yours was be-earlied too! according to the timing of my phone(: haha! thanks for the mysterious package in my bag! i almost thought it was rubbish^^

tania! hahaha! technically speaking, you are the first on 4th oct:D haha thanks(:

tabitha! thank you:D hehe

grace! what in the world were you doing at 4++! haha, but thanks all the same!

and my dad gave me a red packet in the morn^^ and my sister wished me happy birthday! my brother was sound asleep(:

vanessa! you every year say almost the same thing leh! hahaha! but thank you(:

mei fang!:D hahaha! ALL THE BEST FOR O levels(: but you so pro, can slack a bit also:D

and then i switched off my phone because exam starting already(:

then quite funny leh! i panicked a bit during paper 3, then i forgot what the date was! LOL:D

then after exam, i switched on my phone(:
got calleralert! joline goh tried to call me 2 times:D and her sms to call her!
so i called her:D haha and i tell her i go fish tank that side.

then on the way down, i read some smses(:

my mama sms me(: hehehe

pamela wished me happy birthday^^ and asked whether joline pass me sth? then i was like pass me?o.o haha! thank you for the birtday wish!

and samantha wished me happy birthday too! but she added a "*inserts my hand pinching your butt!*" LOL! did i mention before!
samantha got this scary face,so last time during trng, i quite scared of her, until one day, she accidentally touched my pigu, then she suddenly purposely touch again! gave me the shock of my life! from then on, my impression of her changed 180 degrees:D thank you biantai:D

thank you elena:D hehe! but why you ask me rest ah?:D shouldn't you be the one resting:D you always so busy!

hehe thanks liyi!(: we have angel-mortal yuan fen! your birthday 1 week after mine:D

then joline pass me the present that she and pamela give me(: thank you two kids:D hehehe! i will use the presents^^ and thanks for the card(: hahaha!(:

and thanks so much for the board(: hehe, so nice! although the picture of me so unglam:D

thanks larissa for the birthday message(: "and i dont go thankyouahthankyouah"!

then jolene and jun qi met up with me, and jolene tell me go fish tank, so i went there but i suspected sth! then jolene change venue, tell me to go college reception:D hahaha! then jun qi, jolene and amanda sang me a birthday song with the cake.

thanks for the cute surprise! amandatan, you bluff me, say you go home! haha! although the candle cannot light up because the lighter spoilt! HAHA, but still, so cute of all of you! thank you(:

thanks grace! haha

jia ning! as usual! so high:D thank you(:

glenday, thank you for that rather long sms(:yep, and it's a big yay for smiggles(:

thanks jolyn chew:D you must be happy!(:

thank you jin yi!(:

thanks justina!

thank you ze shan:D your phone cannot get thru! hehe

thanks justina!:D

my parents bought me something i like to eat for my cake ^^ had mudpie:D so nice! sang song and eat cake(:

and thank you shalynn for the loooooong letter( because you go attach the paper so long) HAHA! but thank you(: heehee!

thank you jun qi(: hahaha! we will go out with tian feng soon ^^

thanks xiaoen for the blog dedication(: hehe!:DD so sweet of you(: i read it on 4th:D

haha, vivian, you're not the last to wish me happy birthday(: but thanks!

thank you weiren but that rather long sms too! hmmm.. never thought you'll see me in that way(:

and thanks all for the fb wishes!:D

from the bottom of my heart, thank you all!(:

2011-10-04T13:43:00.002+08:00

there's a lot of people i want to thank(: but there's this 1 person that i want to thank specially now!

it's mummy(: i really want to thank my mum for bringing me to this world. 17 years ago, it must have been a terrible pain for my mum. but thanks for enduring with all that pain. i think life is really a miracle.

you opened my eyes to a whole new beautiful world(:

so thank you so much(:

p.s. i will add you back on fb soon! hahaha!

2011-09-26T17:51:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOEN!:D

hehehe

2011-09-23T18:02:00.002+08:00

today's a good day on average:D haha! lessons are so funny(:

BUT! i was pissed off during a certain time of today!

STOP ponning lessons if you are in school!:O somemore, you don't tell me! then how in the world am i suppose to know that you are in school! and IT'S NOT JUST ONE! it's getting more:O

what if i said you are present and then you dont turn up! i dont want anybody to get into trouble so cooperate please!

YOU have no idea how irritating it is when i have to call and ask people where they are! and when the teacher ask who is absent, i have no idea!:O worst still, just when i thought you left school already, there you are for another lesson!

-.- stop making my life difficult please!
URGH! attendance should be the easiest job, but why does it not seem like it-.-

oh, and i decided already, i shan't skip econs lecture again! as much as it might not help me in the way i want the teacher to, i can't just shoot down the teacher without even having the basic respect of going to lecture. so sorry, i apologise for my folly. i know people pon school, it might not be something wrong because everyone is studying equally hard. but i still think it's irresponsible. but well, that's just my own opinion..

on a side note, i am quite panicky now for promos!

it's a week away and i haven't started bio and econs!:O i started on chem yesterday(: the only consolation is math, but i still need to get my vectors and S & S right.
and there's wr to edit and i & r to do!

ok, actually i'm not as angsty as i seem to be, it's just that aiya, nvm, i've said what i wanted to say. so please cooperate!

2011-09-16T18:06:00.003+08:00

today's a friday!:D haha! ok la, but i decided to call off my self proclaimed holiday till promos end! HAHA!:D

i think school's quite fun but can be a waste of time these few days!

i totally laughed my way thru econs lecture! hahaha! kept disturbing emily! LOL!:D and during break today, we were talking about horror shows and how the GUYS seems to be more afraid than the girls! in general! i dont watch horror shows though!(: prefer comedy, thriller:D hehe!

my bodyclock is a bit haywire:D i'll reach home between 4-5? then take a shower, do a bit of work, before sleeping till 7-8, then wake up and do work until 2-3 then sleep:D but i like it this way la!

might as well maximise my effectiveness(:

it's quite fun la! PROMOS IS ENDING in about 3 WEEKS time!:D hahaha!

then can fly like bird alr!:D

go everybody! jiayou mugging!(:

byebye:D

OHH AND MY PHONE died-.- but luckily hui shan lend me her spare phone(:

2011-09-12T23:22:00.001+08:00

Before the day ends, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKA!:D

2011-09-12T17:09:00.002+08:00

i officially started mugging yesterday:D

haha, the other day because i stayed up until quite late and i didn't want my mum to know, so i blocked her from facebook!

then the next day she very funny, "eh? shalynn and shannon, you dont want to be my friend anymore?"

and we were like, "how you know? O.O" (because my mum doesnt know how to use facebook)

and she was like, "i went to see facebook, then the video (that we tagged her) disappeared, and i only have 16 friends!" and she gave us the sad face!

HAHA! so we found it super funny:D and she doesnt believe my maid has more than 5000 friends! LOL!:D

and still say, "why i only have 16 friends!"

hehehe!

perfect two(:

break-up version!:O

2011-09-07T04:04:00.002+08:00

still awake at this unearthly hour:D

not the latest i've stayed up till though. remember there was once when i couldn't sleep, and only slept when my parents went to work:O

maybe there's still something for me to look forward to(: but it's quite faraway.

there's 23 more days to promos! i remember liking to countdown to my exams in sec sch, and when i start counting down, it means i'm starting to plan my study schedule(: *pat on my back*

hehehe!

YOU YOU YOU AND ALL OF THE YOUs, please please please have more faith in yourself! you got to believe in yourself. you are far better than you think you are, really.

saw this quote "somewhere"

"if you think you are too small to make a difference, try sleeping with a mosquito for a night"

well, maybe our mind just works in such a way that we always think we are insufficient in some way. if only we can look at ourselves with the way we look upon others.

2011-09-05T01:50:00.001+08:00

2011-09-03T00:08:00.003+08:00

24) How has your week been?

GREAT!(: hehe! i love elections! i think they should have it once every year lo! this year super nice! so many holidays!:D so only had 1 day of school this week(:

sat: went for cip but it got cancelled because it rained:O so went for breakfast with audrey, sherlyn and Ms Lim. quite interesting la! talk for quite long! went home, watch some tv, then i fell asleep on the couch! oops! so i only woke up when jolene rang the doorbell! hehe! slacked, talked, watched funny videos!:D

sun: i woke up super late! hahaha! then i went jolene's house! this time, she was asleep! LOL! did a bit more work! but i was very distracted by dramas:O

mon: went school for the shooting for the sky/stars(i forgot) but if only their publicity was improved, because ended up most volunteers were playing with each other's games! we played basketball too:D

tue: did and edited pw!

wed: go school, blablabla, end sch! OH! and so coincidental! when i had to go somewhere, my ez link card suddenly die!-.- so i spent like 4 bucks on transport! now i see the advantages of an ezlink card:D went grocery shopping at night to get fruits for tcher! hehe!

thurs: tchers day!(: i like it! hehe! performance, some not bad:D went to pass respective tchers their cards, went for fgd for a short while, and off to nanyang:D yay! somehow, it feels so comfortable! or maybe it's just psychology! but whichever, i was happy:D saw familiar faces, the only exception was our uniform:O talked to ms khoo, and lilaoshi:D hehe! after that, cabbed back to pri sch with jolene and jun qi:D
woah, chongfu changed a little i guess! hehe! like the things are smaller! ok, that was lame! i grew bigger:D hehehe! but the chicken rice stall was close): and there were a lot of people! saw some familiar teachers, talked to ms yow, mrs wong, and mr pek for a while(: wanted to talk to mr quah but he was talking to other students!
jolene was trying to see if she can slamdunk because the basketball hoop is shorter!(:
i think i saw my p1 buddy! like when i was p5, and we had to take care of a buddy!
went jolene's house first, while the guys went to eat! after that, played basketball and billiard together! quite funny la! haha, and we keep teasing the ignatius!(ikena) LOL!:D
fri: today,went sch to do some stuffs, then went for vaccination and to replace my spoilt ez link card! they took away my ez link card D: why like that! my p6 picture gone alr!): and i had to go and take a quick picture at the photobooth! :/

I NEED TO START WORK SOON! ahhhhhhh!

2011-08-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

OMG! THIS IS SUPER FUNNY!:D
I HAVE TO POST THIS MEMORABLE DAY! HAHAHA!
LAST NIGHT, JOLENE AND I DECIDED TO PRANK SOMEBODY!:D
so jolene ask me who more gullible: pamela or joline?

i tell her joline! and pamela talk on the phone so scary!:D
so we just wanted to pretend to be joline's long lost friend!

but joline got scared!:D hehehe! then i still pretend on msn and fb chat!:D but only send 2 smses and called once(we only said hello and started laughing, so we faster gua4 diao4) then decided to sms joline the next day, which is today!:D

so we were thinking of what name to be!:D then just anyhow come up with a peter name!:D

then JUST NICE joline's pri sch classmate also called peter!:D HAHAHA!

SUPER FUNNY! because can see the whole conversation thread! then joline was quite worried:D hehehehe!
i scared joline angry, so decided to faster explain to her! HEHEHE!
haha! and i broke the trust of joli/ene(S) heehee!

LOL! super funny! today is a happy and funny day:D

2011-08-28T01:40:00.000+08:00

at this hour, the most oxymoronic thing sets in.

2011-08-21T21:42:00.001+08:00

There are reasons to believe in a better world

2011-08-20T17:54:00.002+08:00

23) Describe what you spend most of your time on.

Thinking/stoning/sleeping. If i'm not asleep, i'll be either thinking or stoning. but i'm quite amazed at my concentration when i start thinking. like the other day on the bus, i was thinking about something, and i didn't even realise that elderly people were coming up the bus, until the bus uncle told us:O

and how to describe!? lol! stoning, the mind blank blank one lo! but actually, when i'm thinking, i'm just talking to myself in my head!(: most people does that right?

2011-08-16T23:26:00.001+08:00

the familiar faces, the friendly waves, the warmth.

that's how much it means to me.

2011-08-16T21:58:00.002+08:00

this week is a rather busy week!:O

anyway, i decided to delete all the messages i've kept since i bought the phone:/ i used to think that keeping messages will remind me of so many beautiful memories.

but well, from another perspective, if i can remember that memory, it must mean a lot to me. If not, then there's no point trying to remember something through the help of smses.

so bye smses! i still miss them though): feels like a part of me is removed along with the messages..

2011-08-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

yay! i'm happy today:D

as far as possible, i shall declare friday as a "weekly holiday":D other than school, i will not touch any work(: and will do the things i like to do:D

played basketball today with mun, glenday, haiyun, grace and basketballers:D so fun!(: hehe, kind of reminds me of nanyang, where playing basketball was a regular basis for mun and i, especially:D

i miss nanyang D: it's so protected and so warm(:

maybe jc is not that bad a thing afterall, it helps us to LITERALLY transit to the real world (as you call it).

like in jc, there's politics already..
and i'm starting to get a little skeptical.

my mum told me that politics is so prevalent in society that more often than not, everyone got to grasp the skill of politics:/

i dont like it that way. why cant we be more real? frank where possible and sincere with the way we treat people.
but maybe politics work.. toe the line and blablabla..

hopefully, with time to come, my faith that sincerity does triumph over politics will strengthen.

ok, i'm still happy:D byebye!

2011-08-10T23:10:00.003+08:00

i love the people who make me laugh when i dont even feel like smiling(:

there comes to a point in life when you realise who matters, who never did, and who always will.

and there are some people you wished you know earlier.

but i guess all the people, regardless of whether they matter or not, all shaped me into the person i am today.

my post no link one, but nvm.

there are also some people whom might not surface everyday in my life, but they are just always there.

and some people, no matter how distanced we've become, you always get the same feeling.

but there's this 1 special person whom i'm always always thankful for. you know who you are(: thanks a lot:D

2011-08-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

yay! happy national day, singapore!:D

today went for joline's friend organize the food hunt:D
at first, quite scared, because dont know everybody except joline! hehehe! but quite fun! still can eat nice food:D

yesterday was fun also!:D
finally caught hp7 part 2:D with the same people! hahaha! so cool right, watch hp7 part 1 with tania, elena and meishan and hp7 part 2 also watch tgt! but i think voldermort's laughter was unnecessary!:D
cabbed back to school and join seniors and coach:D felt exactly like the old times! jiayou, seniors! most of them look so qiao2 cui4:/ after that, went sogurt and then to coach's company with samantha and xiaoen(: so cool leh! i feel like it's a good hangout place!(:

i love this week!(:

p.s. SHALYNN YEO SHI MAE, i'm not in love-.-

2011-08-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

this moment is perfect

2011-08-03T23:19:00.001+08:00

2011-08-02T00:49:00.002+08:00

woah! i haven't been here for quite some time!:D quite some stuffs happened!

hmmm.. shan't elaborate since it's quite late and i want to sleep soon(: i've been quite tired for the past few days!

oh, and i think i'm still in my half-slacking mood. don't know whether that's good or bad la!

sometimes, i like feeling busy, but i don't like it sometimes. like when i'm too busy, then my brain have no space to think about the things/people i want to think about! hahaha!(:

oh, and i haven't answered the question for a long long time already!

22) What made you smile the most today?

actually this question a bit lame for me, because i generally smile quite a lot! so inaccurate! actually i know what made me smile most, but i don't want say! heehee! and the smile really radiates inside my heart(:

2011-07-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha!(: so nice:D

2011-07-24T22:07:00.003+08:00

i like weekends:D yay!

yesterday, when my mum went to learn hairdressing, my sister and i tagged along because we wanted to go pasir ris park and cycle! then in the end, the bicyle kiosk closed. hehe! so we went to white sands shopping centre.

then my dad went to fetch my mum first before picking us up!
so he called us when he was reaching, then i scared he cannot stop by the road for too long, so i asked my sister to hurry!

then my sister ran and we both saw a maroon colored car, so we quickly ran towards it! then suddenly, i saw the front passenger seat, the person don't look like my mum!
then my sister saw that the car handle was silver instead of maroon!

so we both suddenly turn 90 degrees and ran away!
so embarrassing! hahaha! the person had a puzzled look on her face!
and when we got to our parent's car, we burst out laughing!:D

we could have taken the red route if we didn't mistake someone else's car for our dad:D

2011-07-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

21) How has your life changed over the past year?

woah, quite a lot has changed, it seems.

i'm less comfortable, but more comfortable.
i'm sadder, but happier.
i laugh lesser, but i laugh more.

if you understand the context, you'll know what i mean.

i'm going to sleep now! bye,world!

2011-07-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

somehow this reminds me of "putnam go swimming! (don't know what thing)" HAHA!

2011-07-22T01:24:00.002+08:00

20) Name 5 presents you wish to receive on your birthday.

there's nothing much i can think of. actually it's more of who i'm receiving the present from and not really what the present is.
like even though how some presents might seem more materially insignificant, it's actually the same presents you know you will treasure(:

it's late now, i'm going to sleep soon! today's friday! so should be ok!

i think i haven't mention before, but i like hc's motto/vision (don't know which is which)

Live with passion, lead with compassion

(:

2011-07-19T21:46:00.002+08:00

19) Write about your last birthday and how you intend to spend your upcoming birthday.

Oh i can summarised how i spend my last birthday in one word!
STUDY!:D

how i intend to spend my upcoming birthday: STUDY and do my promos properly! hehe!

i think my birthdate is cool in its own special and unique way! haha, too cool alr!:D

2011-07-18T22:56:00.003+08:00

i'm at the computer to exercise my fingers! D: my hand is quite painful from trying to rush out summary notes which was supposedly due today!

ok, i feel a need to rant:/ ignore me because i will definitely insult someone in one way or another!
just when i thought i don't have to write bio summary notes anymore, the new tcher comes and say we need to write:O ok, writing summary notes is not a badthing afterall because in the end also need study, but her requirements are plain weird!
1) write on a paper that has no lines
2) draw diagrams
-.- first of all, i prefer to write on papers that have lines because i think i read better that way, and i seldom include diagrams/pictures in my notes unless they are very important for my understanding. i don't see why she has to make those kind of requirements, especially when i'm the one reading my notes for myself to understand and not for her to read my notes-.- and i only knew of dong bio summary notes, doing stq, and frq today:/ which is very sian.. because i've been at my summary notes since past dinner time and i've still not completed and my hand aches! blehhhhhh! and what am i doing here right! haha!

i feel like this weird angsty teenager that blames everyone except myself! heh. ok la, i just needed to rant! ok, fa1 xie4 le!

and i really hope that tcher turns out to be nicer than i thought! i don't want another un-nice tcher:/

on a sidenote, tmr is tuesday!:D

18) Post a confession/secret.

one normal day, i saw this bright light shining in my direction and when i turned, i saw the most beautiful and charismatic smile ever! since that day, i've never stopped thinking about you! and i think i'm gradually falling in love with you!

LOL! RETARDED! ERM HEM! you can choose to believe the above paragraph if you want(:

SECRETS are meant to be kept, and not posted on such a public platform! well,for me at least..

2011-07-17T22:49:00.002+08:00

16) Name 2 significant people in your life and explain why.

there are more than 2 significant people in my life leh.. nvm, 2 significant categories of people in my life:D

family! father, mother, brother, sister and maid!:D my parents who had helped me grow up and provided me with so many things, both material and non-material! cliche as it sounds, i wouldn't be here without them(: my siblings whom i spend the most time with in my life! doing stupid stuffs, getting into trouble together, fighting with other people together! hahaha! and the sharing of things with each other(: hmmmm... and my maid(: it's nice to know that there's another person looking out for you at home, to talk to you when you're sad, to laugh at the stupid jokes you crack, and to console you when she's the first one to notice you cried.

another category--> friends! LOL! that's like saying all the significant people in my life!:D hahaha! i don't feel like saying names la! but this category is large yet small!(: if you get what i mean. but so far, those that i know who reads this blog, that includes you(: needless to explain why! other than my family, you are the people i can trust with my secrets, i can sometimes allow myself to be vulnerable in front of, the people whom i feel comfortable with, the people i know will make me stand if i fall, and the list goes on!

there can never be just 2 significant people in my life!(:

17) Bullet your day.

- woke up
- ate breakfast
- read newspapers
- did work
- eat lunch
- did more work
- read storybook
- watch video
- slack
- bathe
- eat dinner
- did more work
- read storybook
- use computer

haha! i used to bullet my days last time!(:

anyway, we had a rather funny conversation today.

my brother, "oh ya! i think i QUALIFIED for econs mass remedial last year!"
my mum, "WHAT QUALIFIED! rememdial is a bad thing! what do you mean by qualify!"

my sister and i burst out laughing:D hahaha! LOL!:D

2011-07-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

15. Write about something you worry about a lot.

woah! last time i used to worry about growing up! but then i realised i was growing up every second so it doesn't make sense if i worry every second of my life-.-

but i'm still quite worried about it! like because before i grew up, and after i grew up, there's this weird baggage that comes along with growing up! like sometimes no matter how much you want to turn a blind eye to certain things, it just keeps appearing right in your face! and sometimes, it can get quite emotionally tiring:/

2011-07-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

14)Post your favourite book, favourite movie, favourite band, and favourite food.

Favourite book: actually don't have a particular one! but i generally like jodi picoult books because of the way she cleverly presents moral dilemmas and the witty stuff that the lawyers say in court:D

then it would be the harry potter series too! i remembered i hated it because my mum forced me to read it when i was quite young and don't really understand the book-.- until i read it when i was older!(:

favourite movie: uhhh.. normally when i understand a movie, i will like it very much already(: so don't have! but the most recent one would be X-men!:D

favourite band: don't really have also, because i only stick to a certain genres of songs but bands have a certain variety, but maybe coldplay?

favourite food: ice-cream:D no la, actually it's currently what i feel like eating now! but i like seafood especially crab:D

2011-07-12T23:07:00.003+08:00

13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.

woah! hmmm.. for near would be to cope well in school! to work harder for academics?:D yeah, sth along those lines la! but i have more important priorities before A levels(:

far, i hope i get to study law overseas/locally? but on the other hand, i don't really want to conform to a certain way of living life! so maybe i would want to drive around in my own caravan(: but that's quite impossible!

the furthest plan for the future is to retire in new zealand and stay on a farm!:D

2011-07-10T22:58:00.002+08:00

12) Write about the worst day of your life.

ironically, some good days are the worser days of my life.

especially those that involve people leaving and days where you bid farewell to people, knowing that certain experiences will only remain as memories.

2011-07-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

11) Write about the best day of your life.

why are all the questions so specific and definite?:O i have a few 'best days' of my life leh!:D aiya, i just list a few things that happened that make me think it's the best day of my life!

-hehe, when we go Malaysia last time, i will always be very very happy and excited to see all my cousins(: and we play all the lame games like 'exchanging stickers', 'police and thief', 'happy famiy', 'soccer'! aiya, basically, anything we can think of, we will play! we even thought of opening a cake shop and living in a big house together:D nowadays, getting busier so never really go malaysia that often

-last year! nanyang's BIG scale funfair! i remember i was super excited and happy for the entire day! with the bouncing castle and all the fun! and that was when i thought that life couldn't get any better than that!:D haha!

- this year! THAT day! it was really the best day of my life! i was so so so so so happy that ...:D but now that i'm thinking of it, it seems like the memories can play out exactly in my head:D but i was really super super super happy!:D

-random moments! sometimes, when things get really funny and warm and sweet, then i feel very happy and i will like that particular day a lot alot! especially words/things done by certain people(:

:D

2011-07-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

10) What's the meanest thing someone has ever said to you?

"you SUCK!" haha, just kidding! but actually this one i also don't know! sure have people say mean things to me one la, just that obviously i wouldn't choose to remember! haha:D

joline's tumbler very nice:D haha!

2011-07-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

9) What's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?

woah! this is a tough question. actually, i can't point out a particular nicest thing, because at that point when someone tells me something nice, i will feel it's the nicest thing(:
all nice things are said when meant from the heart, so i've always kept all the letters people gave to me over the years in a box, and that's also another reason why i don't delete my smses so it's currently flooding my memory space.
the phone that spoilt made me feel very sad because all my messages were lost together and it felt as though a part of me was gone! somehow.
and thank you for letting me know those nice things because some nice things are so unexpected, you just get caught by surprise.
and hopefully, people say nice things only when they mean them..

what are words if you don't mean them when you say them..

2011-07-05T19:47:00.001+08:00

2011-07-05T19:21:00.003+08:00

herro!(:

i kind of like tuesday's timetable(: because it's the day i can see jolene for the longest! YAY(: joleneongyixian! thank you very much! hehe, although our jokes/laughter are reduced to about once a week, it's still the same feeling i get since forever!(:

ohh! and math was better than what i expected! quite relieved about that because i really don't want to lose faith in my favourite subject:D

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOLINE!:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 5 PEA BRAIN!:D you're upgraded!(:

2011-07-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

7) Post a recent picture of yourself.

this is LAME! if you know me, you will see me quite often(: ok, on second thoughts, i will post a picture..

HAHA! oh ya, a few people has been telling me my hair is long! hahaha! i shall just leave it that way, anyway no difference to me la:D

8) How do you feel today?

woah, apt to answer this question! my emotions like roller coaster! morning was tired, late morning disappointed, afternoon and late afternoon, rejuvenated/excited, evening, happy, night, happier!:D

heehee!

2011-07-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

YAY! block test is over! haha! but ok la, it also means that all the crazy stuff all piling up!:O nvm, i shall enjoy my short freedom in the time-being(:

all die alr la! i'm not looking forward to receiving my results! math, my favourite subject, how can you do this to me? D: chemmm! you used to be easy, what's happening? :O

and chinese, since when have you become so irritating, people go watch movie/go training, we have to sit from 1-4 to do chinese-.- unbelievable! and chinese is ok, but chinese exam is not! blehhhhh! but ok la, i was very tired, so after completing my zuowen in 45min, i slept for the rest of the 45 mins:D haha! and mr ken yeow woke me up, then he asked whether i finished, then i nodded, so i could continue sleeping(: paper 2 also, i tried to finish, then went to rest(:

after chi, went for tchouk training! but i'm so tired D: so i wasn't exactly focusing so training wasn't as productive as it could be! tmr have tchoukball from 8-6! it's going to be fun! yay!:D

ok, answering 6) when was the last time you cried?
uhmm... sometime in may? elaboration is not needed(:

2011-06-30T13:52:00.001+08:00

2011-06-30T13:50:00.002+08:00

5) Write about a period when things were not so good.

hmmm.. the most significant one would be the 2nd half of 2009. things were just going so horribly wrong then, i made a wrong decision which i regretted, and it affected this and that:/ aiya, things was just bad. FULLSTOP.

2011-06-30T13:43:00.002+08:00

4) write about a period in your life where things seemed to go constantly good.

hmm.. there are a few of such periods. most recent one would be last year till this year, although have buffer period! after eoys last year, vietnam trip, hols was relaxing and fun, and family trip(: during the transition period, things weren't so good then.. and the most recent period would be quite obvious(:

2011-06-29T11:52:00.002+08:00

the next one is easy too!:D

3) if you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?

hmmm.. actually very simple one la. i will just try and spend time with all the people who mean a lot to me and let them know how they've impacted my life so positively and that i never regretted knowing them(: family, friends! yep(: and then, within the last hour or so, i would disappear to somewhere where nobody knows me and die there. oh, and i would try bungee jumping too! oh and maybe hijacking a lamborghini car!

2011-06-29T11:41:00.002+08:00

ok! write 2) write about the best friends you've had over the years.

before that! YAY! bio is over! it occupies so much memory space in my brain that it's irritating!:D

ok! anyway, i don't like the word 'best friends' because it doesn't make sense! best means only 1! so i prefer the term good/close friends:D

and i'm only going to talk about the close friends i've had! so if you don't see your name, it means you are my close friend now:D or you were never my close friend! HAHA!:D

kindergarden: yangkeng. ok! i can't really remember much of my kindergarden days and who were my classmates but haha, if i can remember you, means you must be one of closer friends(:

p1: i got no close friend D:

p2, p3: nicholas, qi en! haha! i will always remember how naughty we were last time until teacher will make us sit in 4 squares at the front of the classroom:D those were the good days indeed!

p4: weishan! haha! did we realise we went to the same enrichment centre and are in the same class or sth like that? but anyway, it was nice having you as my friend(:

p5. p6: tianqi! hey! haha! we still keep in touch but not as close but i guess that's normal! we had a lot of fun too, playing tabletennis, chateh, and thanks for making me look more normal playing with guys! LOL:D

the close friends i had in sec sch are still my close friends so it's not a past tense! i really hope they don't become a past tense in my life(: and hmmm.. jc! haha, 'you are more than a friend!'

thanks for everything, everyone(:

2011-06-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

while waiting for my dinner! haha

15 facts about myself ah, if i run out of things to say, then i say lame stuffs ah!(:
my goodness, why is it so hard to think ah?:O nvm, then i post lame one

1. i like to sleep:D
2. i love my family
3. i like my friends
4. i have no boyfriend;)
5. i have siblings, 1 older brother, i younger sister
6. i like to be around people, they make me laugh/smile (but of course must be people i like la)
7. i like you (HAHA, just kidding, later you some weird pok reading)
8. i don't like exams( who likes anyway?)
9. i want to have a dog!
10. i don't like cats
11. i'm scared of them
12. i have been listening to the song 'as long as you love me' quite nice leh! go hear:D
13. i don't like songs that's too loud or fast
14. i like to watch hongkong drama serials
15. i'm 17 this year!

LOL some so rubbish!(:

2011-06-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

1) Post 15 facts about yourself.
2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6) When was the last time you cried?
7) Upload a recent picture of you.
8) How do you feel today?
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
11) Write about the best day of your life.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
16) Name 2 significant people of your life and explain why.
17) Bullet your day.
18) Post one confession/secret.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
20) Name 5 presents you wish to receive on your birthday.
21) How has your life changed over the past year?
22) What made you smile the most today?
23) Describe what you spend most of your time on.
24) How was your week been?
25) Write a letter to someone you miss.
26) Write about something you once loved, but now despise.
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
28) If you had three wishes, what would they be?
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
30) Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?

hahaha! this one take from my sister's blog! in between the mugging and all that, can do this also la(:

2011-06-25T19:30:00.000+08:00

woah! haven't updated for quite long:D

i've been busy muggging(: call me a good kid! yesterday i had headache and i can't believe my mum actually said i studied too much! got such thing one ah!

oh man, i must have been studying really hard! LOL!:D

come to think of it, i was out studying the entire week!(:

monday- at macs with xiaoen, joline and pamela:D
tues- ka ki lang, so pamela and i went joline's house! hehe!
wed- went to xiaoen's house to study(:
thurs- went to joline's house again! haha!
fri- went sch for gp lesson because i thought it was compulsory:O in the end, ms goh wasn't expecting such a crowd:O, i didn't study at all yesterday, i also have headache, so cannot absorb anything one!

yep, that's about it! next week block test alr! wonder what it's like to go thru the slight nervousness before exam and "look at the question and stun for 3s" reaction:O

hope for the best la! but on monday, gp exam from 1+ to 4, that one can die, it's the best time to sleep-.-

i think after holiday, full gear ahead alr, cannot like last time, happy happy anyhow slack! after blocks, there's only 10 weeks before promos, and in between with all the pw nonsense, confirm time fly very fast! the next proper break would be the dec hols!

june hols was a good break though, at least i can wake up as and when i feel like it(:

2011-06-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hey, You.

I was sitting in a cafe today and was about to order a coffee, and I saw these two girls a few tables over, laughing and smiling and touching each other’s shoulders when they said something particularly witty. I thought of you, and I ordered a tea instead.

Isn’t that the definition of our friendship, that I like coffee and you like tea? I’m just a little too social, a little too energetic for my own good – you’re there to smooth things out, to cut through my bullshit with a deadpan one-liner. And that’s why we go so well together…well, went.

As painful as it is to commit to writing, the simple truth of the matter is that we’re growing apart. It’s no one’s fault, really, and there was never any angry separation. Even that one time when we disagreed so vigorously that we cried, it wasn’t in anger. Our voices were raised, and we teetered on the edge of mean, but we never needed to get cutting. We are just different people, headed in very different directions. Geographically and emotionally, we are just nowhere near each other.

And sometimes we talk, we have conversations that feel like slipping on an old, perfectly worn pair of jeans, but they are markedly less frequent. We just don’t have as much to say. Spilling our respective histories since the last time we spoke is getting harder, it’s taking up more time, and every moment between us where I hear of a new, exciting, important change in your life that happened over a month ago – it stings a bit. I’m so happy for you, but you didn’t write me that night to tell me.

But, hey, that’s okay. I didn’t write you either. I didn’t write you when I got a new boyfriend, when I got published, when I got that email that made me tear up in front of my computer screen in the middle of a Starbucks. Two years ago, I would have breathlessly recounted every minute detail, and you would have made it all better. You were always there with a band-aid, and you’ll never know how much I appreciate it.

My secrets, the ones you have, even that very important one that only you will ever know – keep them. Please keep them, and I will keep yours. Know that you are a little safety deposit box in my life, that you have kept things for me that were too much to bear on my own, and that no conversation between us at three in the morning on a beach will ever be forgotten. Know that the time you got way too drunk and said into my camera, “Hey, stop taping me,” through your sodden laughter will always be one of my fondest memories. I watch that video and hear myself smiling as I speak, laughing with you, giving you direction and telling you your motivation, and I am back in that moment. It makes my chest feel warm and tight, it makes me swell up with happiness–but I will never put it on Facebook, don’t worry.

I know I will never lose you, that you will always remain in my life in some way, even if only in fond memory and the occasional “Oh my god, it’s been forever, how are you?” I want you to understand just how important you were to me, how important you will always be, even if our time spent together doesn’t reflect that. Nothing about our friendship will ever feel sour, and even though it’s petering out as I write this (perhaps the most painful way for any love to fade), I have only the fondest feelings for you.

I love you, and I don’t think we say that enough to our friends. But as much as I have ever loved a man or my own family, in a very different and perfectly unique way, I love you. Please remember that no matter what may happen down the road, no matter what man may break your heart or terrible event may befall you, that I will always keep the part of you you gave to me. Though that love may lie dormant, though we may slip quietly into years-long stretches of not having the time to talk, I will never forget that it is there.

I want the world for you, and perhaps that is what I must thank you the most for. You have taught me what it is to be truly altruistic, to watch your life slowly starting to pass by without me in it and not feeling wronged or excluded. I want what is best for you, no matter what that means. I want to see you grow, even if from afar.

Please send me pictures when you can, and know that there will always be one of us on my wall. Even when, years from now, someone may see it and have no frame of reference for who that beautiful girl is next to me, I want to look at it every day.

I promise that when we’re back in the same time zone, when you’ve come back from your side of the world and I from mine, we’ll have a day together that will slip into a night and we’ll lose oxygen from all of the things we just need to say to each other. I promise that I will make the time. But I know in my heart that even if we punctuate our very opposite lives with a few precious moments of togetherness, that we are not what we were. And that’s okay. We were best friends, we looked forward to introducing our boyfriends to each other, we cried in each other’s arms. We’ll always have that, and we don’t need to prove it to anyone, including ourselves.

I miss you, but I’m comfortable in that. I smile when I think of the life you’re living, and don’t begrudge you living it so fully that our friendship no longer fits into our schedules. Please know, above all else, that even though it’s not nearly as obsessed over in our society as romantic love, that your love has changed me more than any man I have ever met. I am a better person for having been your friend, and you are in everything I do.

And by the way, that tea was nice, but I still needed a coffee afterwards. Be well.

Love,
Chelsea

the above is a letter titled, " A Love letter to a friend"
certain things are kind of apt..

2011-06-17T22:40:00.004+08:00

Woah, my eyes keep twitching today:O hopefully, sth bad is not going to happen:/
Happy be-earlied fathers' day! went for fathers' day dinner(:

It’s like a storm, That cuts a path
It breaks your will, It feels like that
You think you're lost, But you're not lost
On your own, You're not alone

I will stand by you, I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do, And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes, I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight, And I won't let go

It hurts my heart, To see you cry
I know it’s dark, This part of life
Oh, it finds us all, But we’re too small
To stop the rain, Oh, but when it rains

I will stand by you, I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do, And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes, I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight, And I won't let you fall

Don’t be afraid to fall, I’m right here to catch you
I won't let you down, It won't get you down
You're gonna make it Yeah, I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you, I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do, And you can’t cope
And I will dry your eyes, I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight, And I won't let go

Oh I’m gonna hold you, And I won't let go
Won't let you go, No, I won't

(:

2011-06-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

(: sometimes you just feel happy for no reason:D

maybe there is, but doesn't matter:D

i realise tumblr is indeed a faster way of posting pictures(:

to all out there who are mugging, jiayou(: at least we get the opportunity to study compared to so many children in the world who are deprived of this opportunity!

2011-06-10T23:22:00.001+08:00

“Don’t lose who you are, in the blur of the stars.
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising, just be true to who you are.”

2011-06-07T12:30:00.003+08:00

is it true that we get more skeptical of things once we are older?
What might once make us happy wouldn't have the same effect now?
Somehow, i think everything is beautiful now but i really wish i can see more beauty more often.

there's so many things to be thankful for! small little things we often take for granted.
Imagine life without these people around you.
people close to your heart.
friends.
acquaintances.
strangers.
i feel so loved(:

2011-06-07T11:38:00.002+08:00

Experience is what you get when you don’t get what you want.

when you're doing a bad job and no one points it out to you, that's when they've given up on you

brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want things

Never ever underestimate the importance of having fun

No one is pure evil. If you wait long enough, you will see their good side

i watched this before but now that i watch it again, it inspires me once again(:

2011-06-04T00:24:00.007+08:00

2011-06-02T21:52:00.002+08:00

this holiday is very very busy!:/

my week 1 like almost gone and i haven't started studying:O

need to complete tutorials! need to study! need to do homework! need to do pw! ahhhhh!

but i'm still happy that i go to school! because only when i go to school, then i can see my non-existent boyfriends:D

feels nice to see familiar faces! even if those kuku people like to quote someone! ER HEM!(: i want to have a gathering soon! but so busy!:O

“Life as we know it is full of whimsical things and hidden beauty, live with purpose and meaning, but never forget to slow down and enjoy”

2011-05-28T12:30:00.002+08:00

i finally had a good night's rest(: luckily holiday is here, although it's mainly about studying, at least i still can have my sleep:D

bye everybody! i'm leaving for a camp from today till tues!

quite funny leh! my camp is from 28-31, my sister's obs is from 30-3, my brother's osl trip is from 1-12!:D so my mum commented we were busy ppl!

anyway, to all those who i know who are performing for dance night, ALL THE BEST!(: so sorry i can't be there to watch you all perform!

2011-05-26T23:51:00.004+08:00

quick post!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KORKOR! can't believe you're 18 because you don't even act like an 18 year old person!:D nvm, good to stay young(:

these 2 very childish people took photo of themselves and set as my phone's wallpaper!

~~one week ago...~~

2011-05-24T21:17:00.002+08:00

i'm scared i'll fall sick:O my double eyelids are unusually well-defined and in the first place, they don't belong there! heh:/

why do i seem to feel busier? maybe i was busy last time, just that i was having so much fun that it didn't occur to me that i was busy..

anyway, tmr! all the best, hc tchoukball! but i really believe you all will get double champs! jiayou!

everytime i see somebody familiar(like really familiar),i have the urge to just put my arms around them and tell them how much i miss them..

2011-05-23T21:08:00.006+08:00

seeing the schools playing today made me visualise us there(:

felt so nice to be together once again, talking about the most random of stuffs, the things we talk about don't matter, it's the people that do!

hmmm.. sometimes you believe in something, but reality just have to knock you down! "process is more important than results" cut the crap please! maybe the school is just preparing us to face the outside world!

but i don't care! i still have faith in it and i believe many others have that faith too!
"you must have faith and believe in yourself!"

~~i really wouldn't know what to do without you):~~

2011-05-22T22:24:00.001+08:00

2011-05-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

shannon is not happy because i'm sad now):

you are not part of my life, you are my life

2011-05-17T22:43:00.003+08:00

tomorrow, we will play the game of our lives(:

2011-05-17T14:46:00.000+08:00

2011-05-16T22:36:00.001+08:00

2011-05-16T22:18:00.004+08:00

2011-05-15T12:58:00.001+08:00

haha! this song's tune is so cute and catchy:D

(:

2011-05-15T12:23:00.007+08:00

2011-05-11T21:09:00.001+08:00

haha! quite long never do my -post about the whole day- post:D

anyway, i think i'm a bit not on the right track today(: i kept smiling and laughing! obviously not at nothing:D

but i'm so glad coach made me see something i didn't even think of(:

FRIDAY~ FRIDAY~

and hi pamela!(:

2011-05-10T19:43:00.000+08:00

dedicated to a really special group of people(:

2011-05-10T19:38:00.001+08:00

2011-05-09T21:39:00.001+08:00

Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine

you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth

2011-05-08T15:06:00.001+08:00

Oops! And HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY to all mothers! (my mum especially, of course) :D

2011-05-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

:D reached home at 12 this morn! Hehe! One of the latest timing to reach home! Had fun with Jolene, Amanda, junqi and jia ning(:
Feels nice to go out together! The last time we went out together was quite long ago! D: the food at Athena fo is nicer than ares's one! Oh an I've never seen flyer at such a close range before!(:
Time to do math! Byebye!:D

2011-05-06T18:02:00.003+08:00

it feels so nice(: and it's times like this when

(:

you and i have a really unique way of communicating with each other(: and i hope you are fine,though i know you'll be fine(: let's have more htht (i just found out {or maybe i knew it just that i forgot} what htht means)

and sth lame..

:D

i like the feeling of being in the air with my feet above the ground

and that's probably how i'm feeling now(:

2011-05-05T21:01:00.003+08:00

haha! quick post!:D

first of all, CONGRATS:D yay!:D FINALS! come on, hwachongtennis!:D hehe! GREAT JOB!:D

and OMG! after training today, pamela told us to do something that some japanese show do, something like turn 10 rounds around the floorball stick, then run to a certain point, see who win!:D

then joline went to compete with pamela! then she turn, turn, turn, then at first i thought she still have chance of winning pamela because pamela only slightly faster at turning! but then after she finish turning, joline TOOK 1 STEP BEFORE SHE SLOWLY FELL DOWN IN A MATRIX WAY! (not so slow motion but watching it from the side, it really seemed that slow)

IT WAS SUPER FUNNY! WE ALL JUST LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY! pamela, xiaoen, michelle, joline and i! like siao like that! i laugh until stomachpain! now i thinking about it,also going to laugh already! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

and it was literally

ROLL ON FLOOR LAUGHING!:D

2011-05-04T23:00:00.003+08:00

i feel my brain like got nothing inside now leh D:

like i haven't been using it much, and i need to catch up on all the tutorials! but i still think it's fun to miss lessons:D

and i haven't been reading books! nvm, i just bought one which is not a jodi picoult book(:

anyway, i think i might be finding the lost thing back!
and although i'm tired ( i napped from 8-10), i'm so happy!:D

2011-05-03T21:39:00.001+08:00

2011-05-03T21:15:00.004+08:00

2011-04-30T21:45:00.001+08:00

my father is damn funny:D

Dad: Yati, on the day of polling, i bring you to the polling station, you stand there shout "suharto!" :D they sure bring you to IMH! LOL:D

2011-04-30T00:14:00.002+08:00

i think i would prefer a market better than a club! anyway, main point, other than the company, club = horrible, a bit boring, headache!

today's a really GOOOOOOOD friday! i need to find back this certain lost thing! asap! please! thank you!

2011-04-28T22:58:00.005+08:00

2011-04-25T19:46:00.000+08:00

i've never wanted something so much before.

2011-04-20T23:58:00.003+08:00

(:

my favourite picture of the week:D

hahaha!

LOL!:D

heehee! cute kids:D

although i'm scared of cats, this kitten is cute(: