Sometimes you just feel like giving some nonchalant attitude and don't feel like caring for anything at all! homework, studying, keeping up with deadlines, the setbacks that the SIA always comes with. but you know you can't give that nonchalant attitude, because if you do, nothing will ever go right and when we study and give our best, it's for our FUTURE! big word, future, actually i don't understand life at all, people tell you to study hard so that you can have a better life next time. Definition of better life? ok... if this person slogged her hearts out when she was young, sacrificing her playtime & entertainment to study and get a good grade, yea, she was sucessful, she became a doctor, some wonderful dream job, but does being a doctor means leading a better life? which is more stressful? being a highly-paid doctor where those stressful expectations are required of you, or just being a happy person and enjoy whatever job you are having, regardless of the pay? then this person just continue living up with expectations and again, working her hearts out till the day she dies and just leave the world. Doesn't make sense at all!

Life has its low times, the people in our life just make it much brighter. i can't possibly live any longer if family/friends stop circulating around my life. time is flying too fast, decisions are all rushed, there isn't actually a time to stop and really ponder because we don't have time. There is always this train of thoughts in my head. i'm still surviving, thankfully:D it may seem stupid but really thank you to people out there who bring smiles & laughter to my face, it really make a difference!