hello (:

it's been long since i last posted here. if anyone still reads this blog, i only post on blogger whenever i'm using the computer even though i have the app in my phone.

read a pretty thought-provoking article. sometimes i have no idea why i'm so private about my thoughts but everytime i'm upset, i feel a need to isolate myself. like the other day..

maybe now i feel a little more "open" but then something happens, i retreat into my shell again.

the past few months have been kind to me. no school stress and whatsoever, but everytime some things will trigger the "one year ago, i was..." "one year ago, i felt...." "one year ago, this was me"

coach shared this video on facebook and it did conjure some thoughts within me. but i'm just wondering, will there be an impact? after watching it, will i just accept that society is too hard to oppose and just conform and be one of the rats in the endless rat race

now that i have some responsibilities, i think i cant YOLO that often anymore. it used to be ,"dont care, just whack, deal with the consequences later" but now my actions will have great repercussions and things build on things. sometimes i wish i didnt have to restrain myself so much. just go with the flow~

I've never shouted at people so fiercely and loudly as far as i remember. i really dont want to do it. but some emotions just cant be easily controlled and i guess the important thing I've learnt is to be honest with how i feel. It always feels like a challenge, and if i can get drained, i darent imagine how it is like for coach.